Getting back to things

I haven't been able to post a picture on this blog. It is just over three weeks since Mom died and we are still struggling to just get through the days. Trying to figure out how to move forward without being able to just pick up the phone and talk to her is beyond me sometimes. The rest of the time I am so busy with my daily life and the additional issues of Dad living with me, his estate planning,etc... that I truly have to block it all out so I can get things done. By 7pm I am done.

I know that a day will arrive when I can begin to post regualrly here again, not now but soon. I am taking pictures and have been taking them everday so the blog/book will be complete at some point. I never imagined the year would be marked this way.

I am going to post a picture of the day today...it will be out of order so just forgive me. Mia had drawn this while I was still in Florida. Thank God I took a picture because it somehow has vanished. It is Grammy Pat as an angel.

Goodbye

I am so sad to have to write that my mother, Patricia, passed away yesterday. She had fallen a week ago and needed pretty major elbow surgery. I flew out to Florida to be with her and my brother for the surgery on Thursday. Thank God I came because when we brought her home yesterday she sufferd a blod clot within 5 minutes of getting into the house and passes away monutes later. I am shattered. She was the most important person in my life without a doubt. Over the past 20 years since my moving to Seattle I didn't get to see her very much. As a matter of fact the last time I saw her was in September of 2007, Mia was just 4 and we went the the house on St. Simon's. We had a great visit, too short, but wonderful. Since that time my father has been out to stay with me for about half the year, my mom's brother fought throat cancer with her living with him for 6 months and all the other assorted life issues prevented our getting together for a visit sooner. My plan was to come out with Mia in October for a couple weeks. That will never happen.

I know she is in a better place, our upset is worldly and I know as the days go by the shock will wear off and my reaction to her loss will not be so acute. Right now nothing at all makes any sense.

I am not sure if I can access a picture of her to post today. I will if I can.

Don't put off spending the time with your loved ones...today. I am not sure when I will be posting again regularly.

Day 40 - June 6, 2009

Mia and I were fooling around on the patio with my cell phone...I snapped this pic to update the one I had on there and liked it so much that it is showing up here :)

Update

My computer crashed on Saturday so it may be awhile before I can get back into updating on a regular basis.

Day 39 - June 5, 2009

I know, I know...one photo a day. Whatever, it was too big a day for just one ;) My baby girl graduated preschool and is on to Kindergarten in September!

Day 38 - June 4, 2009

Day 37 - June 3, 2009

Mia has some pretty elaborate games she plays after "lightsout" at night. This is what greated me when I woke her this morning. She said that dragon needed some soothing music to get to sleep.